Lesson Learned: Massive Burnout In Learning Web Development

UpdatedAugust 23, 2022

Ayu is a tech blogger, open source contributor & maintainer, and tech community enthusiast based in the Netherlands. She loves photography and iced coffee!

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Bhumi Khokhani5y ago

That's an amazing article. Thank you for sharing your story, I'm sure it will inspire many. Also, about experimenting, that's obviously the best way to learn while just having fun and exploring new ends. Thanks for writing! 😄

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you, and also for reading, Bhumi Khokhani! 😀

Magda Sokolovic5y ago

great article. I love the mindset of experimenting!

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you for reading, Magda Sokolovic! 😀

Yes! I love it too! I owe my friend a lot for throwing me that mindset since it's one of the things that helped me go through the massive burnout! 😄

Adigun Sherif5y ago

Very beneficial and worthwhile. Thanks for posting

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you for reading, Adigun Sherif 😄

D3V5y ago

I am glad you are back on the track. I reckon there are several reasons behind every burnout. But the most common ones are such as

high expectations without putting in enough efforts and consistency(could write about it for hours).
social media destructions. -seeing only the tips of iceberg in others success and not understanding what it took them to get there. -And much more....

Aspiiire5y ago

Thanks for sharing, I had a similar problem a few months ago, never thought that will happen after years of development!

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you for reading! 😄 I hope you're doing much better now! 😀

Aspiiire5y ago

Thanks God now yes!! Ayu Adiati

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Glad to hear that, Aspiiire!

Eleftheria Batsou5y ago

Amazing post :)

I think this quote says it all "that this journey is a marathon, not a sprint". We tend to forget to pause, we see social media and successful people but most of the time we don't know the full story... As you also mentioned, we shouldn't compare ourselves. Everyone is unique and beautiful.

Thank you Ayu Adiati!

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you so much for reading, Eleftheria! 🙏🏻😊

Edidiong Asikpo (Didi)5y ago

But one thing that we often forget, most of those successful stories also come with struggles.

I absolutely agree! Ayu Adiati

This was a very much-needed read for me. I recently experience burnout some weeks ago and it was terrible. I decided to take a step back from some personal goals so I could rest more and it definitely helped me a lot.

Ayu Adiati5y ago

I'm glad that you like it, Edidiong Asikpo! 😀

I do hope you're doing much better now after taking a rest. Take care, Edidiong! ❤

Edidiong Asikpo (Didi)5y ago

Yes, I am doing much better now Ayu Adiati. Thanks for asking. 😃

Catalin Pit5y ago

Thank you for sharing it, Ayu Adiati! It's not easy to talk about these things, and especially online. 🙂

Well done for doing so! I'm sure it will help people. 🙏

And take care of yourself! 🙏

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you so much, Catalin Pit! 🙏😃

Savio Martin5y ago

No words to expain this amazing post! Thanks a lot! ✌️

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you, and also for reading, Savio Martin! 😄

Victor Ikechukwu5y ago

Thanks, Ayu for sharing your experience. this would really help me cope with my future burnouts and imposter syndrome waves 😊. I love your idea about experimenting, would adapt it into my learning. again Thanks for writing!.

Ayu Adiati5y ago

Thank you so much, Victor! 😊 I'm glad if it could help you 😃

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Self-taught frontend developer | Tech blogger | Open source contributor | Community enthusiast

Hello Fellow Codenewbies 👋,

You read an article or a Tweet on how someone becomes successful. That person's journey then becomes a motivation for you.

If they can do it, I can do it too!

Nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's a good thing. Motivation is one of the factors that keep us going.

But one thing that we often forget, most of those successful stories also come with struggles.
And we tend to focus on the after stories, not the struggles.

Some people avoid sharing their struggles and have their reason for doing that.
But we all know that there is no rainbow without rain. There is no going up without being at the bottom at one point.

This post would be different than my other posts. I honestly hesitated to write, let alone publish, this article. But I decided to share my recent experience as a self-note and reminder for myself. And as a lesson for you to acknowledge when to take some breaks.

Massive burnout

I've been through a massive burnout not long ago.
I'm saying massive because it almost made me want to quit my learning journey.
Does it surprise you? Well, it did surprise me for sure.
All those years I put into learning could've been gone only in one day.

I've experienced burnout before. But I usually start fresh with some days of break (or procrastination).
This time it was different. Taking a break didn't make me feel better.
It started with me having a hard time understanding some concepts. Then I forgot many things I'd learned and done quite a lot before.
I had imposter syndrome, a panic attack, and got so frustrated that it led me to think of quitting.

What caused the massive burnout?

It was a smooth start for me at the beginning of framework learning. So I forgot that this journey is a marathon, not a sprint. I was rushing things. I wanted to add more and more to learn until I got stuck at one point.

I noticed that I started to get frustrated. But instead of taking a proper break, I pushed through because I didn't want to lose the momentum. I asked questions, and I even got some mentoring from some friends. I got some light after the mentoring sessions, but I got confused again. And I was too embarrassed to ask for more help, mainly because I wanted to ask for help on the same topic.

At the same time, many people I know got new jobs. I'm super happy for them, but I also felt I was still far behind. And that was also one of the reasons I wanted to rush things.

Bottom line:

Rushing myself to learn things.
Ignoring the signs of burnout.
Not taking a proper break.
Not sharing my struggles.
Comparing myself to other people.

Those are the things that lead me to massive burnout.

How to survive a massive burnout?

It would be different for each person, but here is what I did:

1. Read the signs and take a step back

I did notice the sign of frustration, but I kept pushing through because I didn't want to lose the momentum.
Instead of being in the momentum, it pushed me away even further.

Take a step back when you read the sign of frustration or burnout. You won't lose your momentum. You're recharging yourself to go further with more energy. Whatever you do, it won't go anywhere, waiting for you to return.

Though it was a bit late, I took a step back and took a break.

2. Take a break

What I emphasize here is not to feel guilty when you decide to take a break. Let your mind off from your learning, work, and be present. Have fun!

My mistake was that when I took a break, I felt guilty for having a day or more off from learning. I did things that suppose to make me feel better, but my mind kept telling me, "Why can't I understand it? Why am I doing this while I should learn and try harder?"

I got much better after taking one week off from learning without feeling guilty.

Taking a real break from whatever you do is essential for your mental health.

I finally shared my struggle with some friends. Surprisingly, I wasn't the only one frustrated in not understanding what I was learning.
After doing that, I felt the enormous burden lifted from my shoulders, and I got my motivation back.

Struggling is not a sign of weakness or being defeated. It's one of the learning processes that many people are experiencing at one point in their journey.

Don't feel embarrassed. Do share your struggles.
People around you could only give support if you tell them what's happening. And a bonus to that, you could get back your motivation.

4. Change the mindset

After I shared my struggles, one of my friends told me this.

Change your mindset from learning or doing to experimenting.

You could get frustrated and stressed when you learn something and don't get it. Or, you could encounter imposter syndrome when you do a project and get stuck.
But with the mindset of experimenting, all you need to do is try until you understand. Until whatever you do works.

No scientist knows how to produce a vaccine for a new virus in the beginning.
They do research, many experiments, and tests until they find one.

The experimenting mindset develops a sense of curiosity rather than failing.

I like this mindset. I started to apply this recently, and it makes me feel everything is all right, even on my bad day!

5. Compare to no one and celebrate more

Gentle reminder: Everyone's journey is different and unique.
I can't compare myself to someone who can put more time into learning than I.
I better not compare myself to someone who can understand things faster than me.
I can only compare where I am now and where I was before.

Seeing where I was 2.5 years ago and now where I understand much more things than a single line of HTML is enormous progress. And I completely forget that!

And now, instead of beating myself up for being slow, I'm learning from my friends who got the jobs. I asked how they got there and what we needed to get there. Experiences are the best teacher, not only ours but also other people's. And I'm fortunate to have friends who share their experiences so I can learn from them.

You (and I) should celebrate more. Celebrate our accomplishments! It doesn't matter how small it is!
Last time, I bought myself a cute pen because I could render a component without looking back at the tutorial. Sounds silly? Well, it was a small win after all!

Final Words

I could encounter another burnout in the future. If that time comes, I will reflect on this post and remind myself that I was there before and survived.

I hope this could help you as well if you're in the same situation as I did 😊

Thank you for reading!
Last, you can find me on Twitter. Let's connect! 😊

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Massive burnout

What caused the massive burnout?

How to survive a massive burnout?

1. Read the signs and take a step back

2. Take a break

3. Share the struggle

4. Change the mindset

5. Compare to no one and celebrate more

Final Words